对不起..

adeline,对不起..我不想敷衍你的..我没心情要跟你聊天.. 我..我想太多了..我不知道为什么我会想太多..对不起.. 我感觉我好像是个冷酷无情的人..只想一个人..过着我孤单的日子..发呆..乱乱想= =||

                                                                        孤单的我


我真的很diao gek 吗? 也许是吧.. 我只想找人谈我的心事,然后就忘了回另一个人..也许这就是我所谓被人说的diao gek. 我是个坏人..  每天只会弄人家生气,我不是不要出,是没钱出好不好? 我没像你们个个读大学,我真的很怕我再大学中我会fail着去.害到父母又要花钱在我身上.. 我我我..我知道我说话会口吃..我也不想要的..干嘛要取笑我.你知道很疼吗? 昨天我和朋友,去dewan badminton 买burger吃,我打包回家,哪里知道，我看到自己的老爸在pao咖啡，我心就直接给他那粒汉堡..我也不知道..因为我通常都会买东西给他的. 还给我rm50给我花,但我骗他说,妈妈给我了= =|| 其实妈妈没给我=.=||  我不想花他们的钱,我已18岁了..还有给我rm 400 还学费 我已还了1000++了..我真的pok gai le啦.. 郑瑞汉..你怎么了..为什么对自己那么信心呢!? 我回答说,本来的..我就是要看底我自己..我我..真的是个坏人..废物..lasap==

我到底怎么了..为何我心好伤心..好难过..我好想告诉我自己,要坚强..
可是我真的无法抵抗你给我的伤,疼痛,冷淡,现在起,我决定伤害我自己..

几累的..昨晚david的生日..我们帮他庆祝,婉君她出了主意,说要给他惊喜,然后我们全部出钱买个蛋糕给他..

还蛮开心的..昨晚,我们还有拍照片呢..那时我还没冲凉啊..然后赶快回家去冲个凉,哪里知道我换个短裤和T-shirt 去melvin家.nagdi.每个人都穿得帅帅..我嘞== 丢脸.. 还有我拍的最烂一个..== 没表情的.. 我带电脑去melvin家过夜..
我们一起玩game..玩到四点才睡觉...到了六点的时候,我做melvin的闹钟..叫他起来上学..不然他家人会骂他..然后我就继续睡我的觉..
我也不知道为什么好端端的,我会做梦到我的以前的学校..梦到我去学校的时候,一下车,就给我朋友suan,他说你的头发已够丑了..我为什么还要去剪fashion,像什么lakia. 他们整group一起suan我,还有的说我脸像什么大便,简直是kns== 我有吗?那时候我真的无法控制.我躲在一个角落就哭了..为什么我这样令人讨厌呢..我长得丑也不是我想要的.
突然我电话响了起来..我就去梦里解脱那个梦..原来是我爸爸打来,叫我去做工.我心里想为什么我会做这样的梦啊..我,我,我..不想说了..
到了下午,12.00 我回到家.吃好饭，冲好凉..就去做工,帮我爸..当时好热..我快晕倒了..不知道为什么,但幸好我没晕倒.我撑住.应该是太热的关系..
过了半小时,天空越来越暗.突然下去大于来了..我和我爸就在一个角落哪里遮雨..到了4点就回家了..不知道我怎么了@@ 没心情去..哎哟.没人能体会到我的.
对不起..我不想说给人听.就写在blog.. 我的朋友们,原谅我没有说..

今天心情还不错.. 起来的早. 我还记得我妈每次叫我做家务.今天我就做给她看^^V
我今天是车房嘞..好累啊..要用一个刷子刷到到完@@ 我手都酸啊!! 不过也是给我刷完了~
每天早上想煮快熟面吃,都没有..要等到妈妈回来才有好吃==V 每天都能到12.00才可以mum mum.
我肚子在大战嘞!!!nuclear BOOM! pik pip piak piak. BOOM!! 好饿..==
等下有上课啊..又要见什么笨lecture. 早知道我不要跟她说我以前说了什么东西.不然她不会给我们做什么 presentation. >.<
要上去讲嘞..我最怕的..哈哈.. 我很rol能去sematan xD 因为她要跟我pk喝green tea==V , 不过不止她一个人啦~别想歪~
我们8个人嘞~~ wakakka~ 还不确定他们能不能去吗.. 希望能咯.. 我手没力气了== 不写了~

my stupid lecture

What The Fuck? last wednesday. I received a cal form segi sarawak. Its was a guy. He told me that i should attend what english intensive. i answer ok, i will blabla bla.then ignore him. then the next day, turns my friend to fetch me go school. I just ready to pass up my ptptl form. then my friend told me. u should attend what english intensive classes. i was frightened. because that recently i studying what general languarge. and the lecture already call us do what assignment and need presentation your work. WTF? 3000 words lerr!? you think easy? lucky my friend help me do liao. if not i will faint ar. NOW i hear my fren said that i should attend the stupid english intensive. i will pisah with my those fren. ==|| and go to king center there study. they at segi collge lerr!! T.T then today. lucky my fren got accompany me go there. her english also get D. == so need extra get english intensive. when arrive there. 1.30 i wait my fren half hour she baru come. == think me are? ur bodyguard? zz then we enter the room together. nagdi. my class mixed with what nursing course == wtf? so many melay. and the new lecture so fui u know? she doesn't how to teach de. and keep walk around the class room. talking nia. and teach what stupid thing. pass tense and present tense. ngadi. primary school already learn le lar. still need teach again? == think we so noob? at the first, she cal me to introduce my self. but i decline her. she angry. mcb. then bo bian. i just simply say lor. i feel that i want go back my general languarge lesson>.< because i think more suitable for me. >.< i miss my fren ar! and i waste one month for studying what stupid english intensive. i regret that i careless in writing my essay when during spm. the title about incident, but unfortunately, i write accident.wtf lar. what i am doing? kns larr. mcb! i stop here ler. no mood write

Hahah, yung straighten his hair
EH! i know i am handsome larrr... don't point on me . touching ~T.T